Swans || Why Hide

“My heart pumps
My legs move
I sit down
I rot
I hide my stink
I follow directions
I know how to work
I keep my mouth shut
I know my place
I hide my stink
I need you more than I hate myself
You hurt me then you hurt yourself
Why hide the lie?”

You’re my father/I obey you/I want you to be my father/I want you to be my father/You know what i am/You know what i am/I want you to kill me/I’m weak/Take what’s mine/Make me feel good/Make me feel soft/Come into my room/Put your hands on my throat/Now choke me/We’ll die/Make me nothing/Make me nothing/Be my father/Be my father/Think for me/Make it right/Think for me/Make it right/Put your hands on my throat/Choke me/We’ll ride.

"She’s a universal emptiness
And a complete lack of faith"

"‎Suck the hatred from my mouth - Raise the dead man that you found, Seal the black mud in my lungs, leave me down here drowning with the wasted and the stunned, Leave me now as I choke and writhe, but feel my body stuck upon the dull and pointless knife of my suicide …"